Emotions are high... September 2009

I've spent the past three days at home alone. David is in La Crosse, Wisconsin doing a training seminar for work. I am not one that really enjoys time alone, but I feel that it's a task I must get through. Something that is important to survive if you will, a chore! Either way, I don't really have a choice so I try and make the best of it. Every time I am alone for more then a day, I feel as though I learn more about myself, more about life and more about what it means to really live. Sometimes in those moments, I feel as though I really don't have the right to feel as though I understand life, feelings, love, hardship, pain, emotion or what it means to struggle or feel hardship in this life. Let me explain why I feel this way. It's not because I have never suffered, never been sad, felt pain or been hurt before; I have. It's just that as I think of my hardships in comparison to other people I know or know of, my hardships seem to pale in comparison.