A journey to being whole..

It's almost been a year sense my last posting. I had such lofty plans of posting daily or even weekly and now I've accepted it might just be yearly!
Where do I start? I'm very bad at not starting because I always wait until the start will be grand, official, whole, so I postpone till I'll be able to produce "my best" and as you can tell that doesn't happen!
I always knew having a baby would change my perspective and selfishly I wanted to have a child for that purpose. I didn't want others to have knowledge of a deeper love or a greater understanding of life because they had children and I didn't. I had NO idea! It's life changing... in SO many ways!! ABSOLUTELY life changing!!
Zane was born on July 16th @ 11:50am. He's opened parts of my heart that I didn't know existed and shown me things about myself that I never imagined I would learn.